Life..........as we know it!!!

The void still exists... it needs to fill up.... the void left by the man I loved or I thot I loved....A man I knew too well...... just to be proved wrong! When I do feel it’s tym to move on and see a streak of hope and try and be a lil optimistic something goofs up the whole situation...

To choose my life partner, do I have to compromise?? Do I need to think of my family and what they feel and want??? Or shud I just do what I feel is right or what my heart desires????\
Is it too much to ask for if I want a man who can match upto me?? I don’t want sumone whoz immensely gud lukin or handsome but atleast sum1 who shud compliment me and complete me!!

At tymes I give in and feel I’m indebted to what my parents want for me and what gives them happiness! But when I feel I’ve to spend an entire lifetym wid dis man, I fall to the desires of my heart and a life that I wished for myself.......my own lil fairytale!!

I need to feel convinced of him and I need to feel proud of him to be able to do justice to him and our relationship. I need to feel happy from within and be happy to wake up next to him for the rest of my life......

When I see brides on their D-Day and see how happy they’re feeling, my heart n mind can only think of one question...Will I be as happy as them when I’m getting married????? Secretly I wish the answer is YES!! What’s better than a lifetym of love, care and happiness....

Mood swings......

I cant figure out whats missing in my life or me.....
My mood swings have taken a toll on me....
I dnt knw y I feel low all of a sudden..y dissapointment seeps in real fast....
Nothing seems to be helping...moments of joy seem 2 run by quick.... n d feeling of cumin bk 2 my reality sets d depression back....

May be its Rahul... bt I knw deep down that its nt gonna work out and still sumwhr I m still waiting 4 him.... whenever im in a bad mood I can only think of him.... I dnt knw wt I want......

I just hate the feeling of feelin low so often.....
Ive lost who I was... Im different now...
I want to be happy internally....
I just need it badly.... its pushing me deep into a kind of a depression that onsets every now and then.....
Life is peaceful.... bt nt happy!
Uggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhh............

Belief reinforced

It is always said that one person knows himself or herself the best. I thot so too but lately my belief in myself was being shaken by people around me. Bt sumwhere deep down I knew myself n knew I was a gud person. My belief in myself was reinforced when I went to a pandit and after seeing my patri the first thing he said was that 'I am a gud person'. My sense of happiness were beyond boundaries. A feelin of satisfaction and relief filled my heart. Im glad..... n truly happy!!!!!!!!

Nothing is stagnant in life....

Im just beginning to comprehnd that nthng is stagnant in life...
Life changes..situations change and so do people....
Ive had best of my moments with Shreedhara, Swati, Surbhi n Rahul... n now all of them seem distant...swati so does nt matter anymre 2 me.... bt the others do... bt i still cant figure wt place I wanna give 2 them inmy life now....

Life was so much simpler and fun when v r younger..yearning 2 grow up nt realising what v were headin towards...nw v just cry 2 go bk 2 younger days n change sooooo many things that have taken place in life...

I figure myself as a gud person..i knw im a gud person within... I have never done anythng bad 2 any1 intentionally.... I have been so weak as a person. Ive trusted ppl blindly and they have always hurt me... and dis is just the quality in me that has caused me most pain....so now dont knw if its a qulaity or a weakness... Ive been put in situations where I have been proved wrong when i wasnt coz no1 understood me and my position...

When ppl try to be nice 2 u, u r made 2 believe that thy are and you put in ur trust in them.... I just wanna move on in life..away from all of such people here...

im now starting to think whether am a gud person or a bad one?? Still seeking the answer and trying to figure out if what I believe is right or wrong?

Life is complicated and so r d answers v seek!

Life!!

Life isnt always abt wt v want.... Our minds are always racing to plan what we want and how we want them for us..... Even the slihtes second that I get I start planing what I want in life....who I want in my life and who I dont... things i want to do and those which I do bt dnt want to...

People always say that the decisons we take are the ones that we wanted to take... well its nt true... there r so many factors that influence your decisions... I feel my life has always been governed by decisions taken by others for me or how they wanted me to be...


I feel empty within....I long to live the life I want to for myself...It may not be perfect but atleast I would be happy... Would rather live that way than live every single day with regret for hell a lot of decisions that Ive taken in life...Im just nt happy... feel like i ll drive myself into depression and just nt want to nthng around seems to give me happiness anymore...no1 arnd makes any difference to my life....even the ones closest to me (Except a few)...

I just wonder to myself if I will ever be happy?? When will I start to live for myself..the way I want to... Will that day ever come??

Love is blind and is always accompanied by Madness

A Pourquoi story like no other

A long time ago, before the world was created and humans set
foot on it for the first time, virtues and vices floated around
and were bored, not knowing what to do. One day, all the vices
and virtues were gathered together and were more bored than
ever.

Suddenly, Ingenious came up with an idea:

'Let's play hide and seek!'

All of them liked the idea and immediately Madness shouted: 'I
want to count, I want to count!' And since nobody was crazy
enough to want to seek Madness, all the others agreed. Madness
leaned against a tree and started to count: 'One, two, three...'

As Madness counted, the vices and virtues went hiding.
Tenderness hung itself on the horn of the moon, Treason hid in a
pile of garbage. Fondness curled up between the clouds and
Passion went to the centre of the earth. Lie said that it would
hide under a stone, but hid at the bottom of the lake, whilst
Avarice entered a sack that he ended up breaking. And Madness
continued to count:

'... seventy nine, eighty, eighty one...'

By this time, all the vices and virtues were already hidden -
except Love. For undecided as Love is, he could not decide where
to hide. And this should not surprise us, because we all know
how difficult it is to hide Love.

Madness: '....ninety five, ninety six, ninety seven...' Just when
Madness got to one hundred, Love jumped into a rose bush where
he hid. And Madness turned around and shouted: 'I'm coming, I'm
coming!'

As Madness turned around, Laziness was the first to be found,
because Laziness had no energy to hide. Then he spotted
Tenderness in the horn of the moon, Lie at the bottom of the
lake and Passion at the centre of the earth. One by one, Madness
found them all -

except Love. Madness was getting desperate, unable to find Love.
Envious of

Love, Envy whispered to Madness:

'You only need to find Love, and Love is hiding in the rose
bush.'

Madness grabbed a wooden pitch fork and stabbed wildly at the
rose bush. Madness stabbed and stabbed until a heartbreaking cry
made him stop. Love appeared from the rose bush, covering his
face with his hands.

Between his fingers ran two trickles of blood from his eyes.
Madness, so anxious to find Love, had stabbed out Love's eyes
with a pitch fork. 'What have I done! What have I done!' Madness
shouted.. 'I have left you blind! How can I repair it?'

And Love answered: 'You cannot repair my eyes.

But if you want to do something for me, you can be my guide.'

And so it came about that from that day on, Love is blind and is

always accompanied by Madness.